When I’ll finaly learn that taking blind and reckless decisions is bad?
How could I be conscious and act like a drunkard at the same time? I don’t understand myself.
Like all the previous wrong decisions I’ve taken, and the pain that came with them, I still insist in the arguments: “Maybe this is the right time, perhaps that “special and unknown element will be there, finally a realistic and powerful opportunity to show the world what I’m capable of, etc”. Sigh… another deception for the record.
There is that old proverb that says: The sun always comes out to shine everything. Maybe is just too cloudy in my forecast to see it now. All what I can do is wait… just wait.